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Topic: I gave my life savings ?..over $25','000''



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debster28

Member Since:
2006-09-12

I was homeless, living out of my car, changing in the Walmart bathroom. I sat in a church surrounded by homeless people waiting to get breakfast for free. How did this happen to me? This is my story.

I was in Christian ministry for ten years right out of college. When I left full time ministry, gave away all of my possessions, and moved away from my friends and family, I spent several months in isolation being manipulated and deceived by a woman who I thought was a spiritual role model at the time. I gave her my life savings …..over $25,000. I gave it all over willingly thinking I was giving it to the Lord. I threw away over a dozen photo albums from the past 15 years of my life. Pictures from mission trips to Romania, Italy, and all over the country. I was told that because I was in some of the pictures, I was prideful and all those years of ministry were all about me so they had to be discarded. I felt free when I threw them in the dumpster. I felt free when I gave up all my money and garbage bags full of clothes and shoes. But that freedom was short lived when I was a servant to this woman and under her control.

After seven months, a “Christian” man came into my life and convinced me that she was not of God and I escaped from her trap and fell right into his. He was a crack addict, homeless, and just released from 40 days in jail. Of course, he kept all of that hidden from me. I was very naïve, to say the least. This man had a side kick, a 19 year old runaway, who went with him everywhere. He ran his own paint business by picking up men at the Salvation Army who needed to make some cash and giving them work.

After knowing these two guys only two weeks, I signed a lease for a two bedroom apartment because we all needed a place to stay. A week after living together, I gave up my virginity after saving it for 32 years. It was the day after Thanksgiving which is the saddest day of the year to me now. I also contracted a virus from this one partner. At times the men from the Salvation Army stayed over at our apartment, sleeping on the floor in the living room because we had no furniture. I thought we were doing ministry together. Little did I know how much danger I was in. I did not know these men were all drug addicts. I did not know they were smoking crack and sleeping around. Not until a month later when he took off with my car and debit card for 24 hours did I realize something was terribly wrong. He has used over $400 on crack in one night. When he could no longer get access to money in my account, he finally came home strung out and crying for forgiveness. I stayed to help him through the next three days. When Monday came and he went back to work, I packed up my car with whatever I had left and drove away from that life.

It had only been six weeks with that crackhead, but it felt like a lifetime. It has taken four years to write this down and share it. I'm still trying to forgive myself for bei

Posted: 2006-09-12 20:52:00
Portland_Girl

Member Since:
2006-10-15

I'm so sorry for your pain... that is tough!

How are you doing now?

Tonya

Posted: 2006-10-15 21:41:00
Portland_Girl

Member Since:
2006-10-15

Hey, I'm serious. RESPOND!

I know the pain. Please, if you need someone to understand, I will never consider you afflicted, because I am MUCH more.

Respond....

Because you are Him that loves them...

Respond....

Because you have felt the depths of slavery....

Respond...

Because you know the freedom of release...

Respond...

Because you alone... YES, you alone can tell me who you are... and I so love you.

Who are you? Cuz I think I know you... and I think I love you. And I think I'm ruined by your story

So, please... respond... I'm left here loving you and not knowing where you are.

We can be together as completely failed... yet at the highest success of all. We are HIS!

UnderwoodTR@gmail.com

Please, let me know how you are... cuz I can't stop thinking of you.

Tonya

Posted: 2006-10-17 00:16:00
vietnamisgreat

Member Since:
2006-10-24

Forgive these cruel people and know that not all are like this. I have been thankful for my wonderful life and after I read this book, I was enlightened and will walk with open eyes and heart. I am sorry for what you encountered and I am sure that you have learned from this. I come to Portland 2 or 3 times a year and I have seen something that amazed me and I hope you are safe, secure and loved by many. It is not what happeneded to you but what you do from this point forward that will shape you for the rest of your life. GOD bless you my friend - Mark

Posted: 2006-10-24 07:14:00
 




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